芦苇日记^^0^^Reed's Diary \..../*~~!..

昨天晚上准备了很久很久的英语演讲终于结束了，i think i have overcome something and step on another platform，感觉很不错，付出得到了回报，感觉自己的声音已经不再颤抖，心也没有过多的狂跳，我想我是成功的，至少在这个关于taiwan independence的演讲上，我尽力做到maximum

下午跳舞，XX对我们的表现很不满意，她不是一个能control自己emotion的人，但也许是因为有些junior太不认真，对于舞蹈没有热情。看着她的脸，我感觉很害怕，but i dun have any objection towards her anger. in fact, i think i have improved a lot

and this should apply to my other studies

And,倒霉的英语合格了，:)

i know i can do it well, i surely can!

困了，明天再说~~安

I could not believe that the teacher asked me to do solo dance in that performance. although it is just an under-study, but she pointed her hands on my head and said "u need to learn". i must say thank you to her. it is not important whether i can go up to the stage and perform, but at least, she trusts me. Although i must say that i dunno really like my partner, that gay looking one always makes me feel irretating, i think i will try my best not to care about it. and try to enjoy the dance.

it sounds very funny that i call myself a dancer. I've only touched this exercise for 2 years, starting from the age when my body is no longer that flexible. But somehow, i've been continuously enjoying dance. this kind of exercise will make me feel peaceful and graceful. I think what i gain from here is not only skills, but also some kind of spirit which pushes me to go forward.

looking at the way instructor or gel dance, i know i still have a long distance towards the real dance, but i think i have gained the interest and i have understood that every chance is in you own hands, if you do not go and catch it, others may easily get it from you.

No matter what happens, i will try my best to get this chance to perform in front of everyone. And I will love this exercise :)

My beautiful dance

My dear, i've been consistantly missing you but you cannot come back into my life from now on.  Day and night, you've never came into my dreams, but i miss you more than anyone else.

I still rmb that black Christmas morning in 2007---in my whole life, i will never forget that day. Lord took up your life in this colorful world. All of us, kind of expected but also nv expected this to happen.

As an army member, you left too early, your strength and talent would have brought you far more than that, but disease stopped everything. You did not want to leave us at all, i knew it from every sentense you have said in the hospital, i knew it from your attitude towards all the doctors. This world is enjoyable for you, from your camera lens, you saw the beauty more than any of us. But i know being an army has taught you more about this world, there are a lot of things beyong this beauty, and that is the reason you should enjoy your life more than what you have done.

Today i finally got time to look at the way you are in a photo, i am not only doing an art work, but also, to keep you in my memory forever. I have put in 100% efforts into this piece, this is not only an art work, but also a heart!

My dear, I know you wanted to come back because you have not done a lot of things yet. We will eventually get a chance, no matter through which way. My dear, I will be with you day and night, and most importantly, I MISS YOU!

本世纪最黑暗的一周还是来了，刚刚过了一天，暂时没有什么感觉。后面几天么，不发疯是不可能的，美术作业都追着我，连动也没有动过，突然发现周三和周四要换课表，那么我的美术。。。就是周三交，RWAR~~~

很想把自己灌醉一次，然后昏迷一睡不醒，把以前得倒霉事情全部忘记掉，其来以后再次开心的生活。很想做个流氓大姐大，成天逛街，然后用奢侈的化妆品，不用担心什么读书不读书的。但是这永远都不会进入我的生活，我所追求的生活需要物质上的享受，但是也有更多起他的东西。

原本以为自己过不了这一关的，真得很有压力，但是觉得现在心态实在是好过头了，而且居然有人比我先迈了一步。。。。。夸张！！

所以现在觉得，自己还是可以的，担心什么，事情么总是只能一个一个做的

复习拉~~~~~~~~~

uh, i am writing this post through Windows Live Writer, this is pretty good i guess.

haha!

was struggling of Mr Lim's Physics, i guess i am going to die for that, but then ,nvm, i always say i will die for this, i will die for that~~but i still survive,haha~~JiaYou for everything. everything is going to end soon